I feel really depressed at the moment. Most likely because I started my period this morning and I’m sitting here all alone. I feel like I need more adventure in my life. The problem is I never feel like doing anything other then sleeping, eating, and working (well not that I ever feel like working). I need some motivation in my life. Also, I’ve been missin’ Ripon a lot and all my friends from Ripon. My friends back home were just way more similar to me than all of the people here. I need some more female friends who share common interests with me, just someone who gets me. Okay now I’m beginning to sound really pathetic, but its just nice to have that feeling of “home”. You know being surrounded by those people who make you feel like when you’re with them you are home. So far I’ve only met one person here who makes me feel that way. Getting out of your comfort zone to make new friends in new places is just so tough! And a bit awkward as well!

OMG. The season finale of 90210. If Dixon dies I’ll be so sad. This show is starting to become more like the O.C.

Omg. I feel like I’ve been really reckless and irresponsible lately because my school semester ended last Wednesday and my summer vacation is finally here! I’ve been spending so much money on stupid stuff, smoking too much, I keep forgetting about important dates, and eating (unhealthily) like I have never eaten before. I better whip myself back into shape or this summer could turn disastrous.